Lovely Hisiq

I shouldn’t be doing this…but I feel like it..and the mood coming for it…my fiancee is going to kill me for this…he knows I should have getting out from bed, take a bath, meals and finishing my ‘proposal of some paperworks’…sorry dear..it has been awhile for these….=p

ere we go…

What were you doing at 3:02am this morning?
Zzzz…sleep already I guess cos I remember glancing at the time was 12 something
before getting to bed…

What is the first thing you thought this morning?
arrrgghh what time now?? What a nice Saturday….not yet 10 o’clock rite?

What did you do last night?
getting home at 7.30pm..wondering what to cook for dinner..at last called Kebab delivery,
call my fiancée until 12am…and sleeps..

What do you hope to do this weekend?
getting as much rest as I can cos the weekdays before were the busiest and
tiring ever!!

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I am in relationship for 7 years 3 weeks and 6 days already….alhamdullilah…and
counting days for our big dayss next year..still long way to go…

What song are you listening to?
Bubbly- Colbie Caillat

How’s your heart lately?
lost-missing-hurt-lonely-very much in love

What were you doing this morning at 7 am?
still asleep soundly..wake up at 7.58am…ehehhe

What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
The Golden Compass or P.S I Love you…which one came first..cant recall…

How did you meet the 2nd person on your top friends?
nahhh…no top friends…I just called them good friends…

How old is she/he?
n.a

Have you ever cried while taking a shower?
yessss!! When I feel suddenly alone when my fiancée not here anymore and still
feel his presence….but realized that was my imagination….=(

Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trusted?
yes….and I don’t want to think of it anymore…

When was the last time you were given roses?
I dotn wait for people to give me roses…Every week I gave myself roses and blooming fresh flowers when I replenish
weekly my vases in my apartment….last 2 weeks..and today I’m going to get new
fresh flower…

Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
I’m craving for lotss of foods…any foods I cant get ere…Msian’s foods

Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
yeahh..but it’s not a big deal…I know it’s a little hard for them to spell or
call me at first…last time was my Dutch teacher who had that difficulties….but
now..it was perfect n I think she like my name very much and always called me
to ask questions =p…

Do you drink tea?
yes… I love tea so much…and variety of tea ere…

When was the last time you saw a cop?
hmm..sometime last week kot…

Did you ride in someone else’s car today?
not today…that was last Wednesday, a fren gave a  lift…

Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
hahhah.. I did the other way round…hahha…put the toothpaste on the tooth brush
and wet it…silly…

Does someone like you?
I guess so…and guess-who??

What color is your shirt?
wearing pink camisole =p

Do you watch the news daily?
nahhhh…I’m not..when I need to only…

Do you clean when you’re upset?
nope…i’m just to lazy for that…

Where do you want to get married?
InsyaAllah July next year is our planning…

What day of the week did/will your birthday fall on this year?
hmmm…got to check it but I’m too lazy…

Are you wearing socks?
nope

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
nope..i’m a true color…

Have you ever seen “Walk the Line”?
never come across such so far…

When was the last time it snowed?
Snowing was on last Easter week and at that time my fiancée and I were in London and..that was soooo damnn colddddddd!!!!

What’s the closest pink thing to you?
my camisole…=p

Do you have plans for tonight?
hmm…rest and do some work..uhh I’m taking workloads home..uhh I’m becoming workaholic
these dayss…

Do you know anybody named Shea?
not that I know…

Are sunsets romantic?
yuppp….I love sunset…I still remember having sunset romantic moments in Sabah with my fiancee..it was sooo sweet…with my fiancée nearby the sea…

Can you sing all the RENT songs by heart?
who the h*** is RENT?

Have any gay/lesbian/bi friends?
not that I know if they are one of it…

Red or green apples?
I like both…

Can you make brownies without having to look at the directions?
nope..i hv to admit that I’m not good in baking….uurrgghh…I got to learn la..  

Do you have hairspray in your hair?
nope..

Do you smoke weed regularly?
nope..

Miss someone?
yesss…really very muchhhhhh!!! What do u call that feeling-when u feel someone
around u,talk to u,eat together, cleans the apartment together, cooked
together, do laundry together, shopping and sightseeing together…and suddenly
he was gone….dont u feel lost and missed him??? I did very muchhhhh…sob..sob…

Do you like someone right now?
yeahhh lotssss of ‘em

What’s annoying you right now?
hmmm…the annoying thing is when I’m alone and I don’t know wat to eat..and no
appetite for that..opsss….i promise my fiancée that I’ll take care of my eating
habits…but I skip my breakfast already…and still wondering what to have for
lunch! =p

Do you want to go back to school?
yess…I’m planning now for my master’s degree…

Have you ever watched a movie drunk?
nope..

Who did you ride in a car with last?
hmm…with a nice Dutch girl called Marleen who kindly picked me up every time I
went to NIZO food research for my work…

Are you tired?
yessss realllyyyy…that was a really busiest and tiring week ever…and now I feel
lil better after good sleep and rest..

What will you do on Sunday?
ops..that will be tomorrow…huge plans…I’ll be with Yvonne
having some coffee while watching a Marathon in..hvg lunch at the my msian’s collegue’s hse..after that travel to wageningen (i hr from Rotterdam) to stay at my fren’s room for my visit to NIZO again on Monday morning ..   

Last person to call you?
my beloved fiancée…

How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
hmmm…depends at the situation….if like now I’m still in bed…probably would take
at least ½ an hour…=p

The last text you received on your cell was from?
verification code for paypal..buying credits for my voip call…cheapest call to
msia..in fact free calls to msia…..hahhaha…I;m luvin’ it…

Pejam celik,pejam celik…dah hampir 5 bulan aku kt sini….

Alhamdullilah aku dah selamat sampai kt Amsterdam , 5//11/2007 kul 5 lebih pagi..waktu malaysia kul 1petang…then terus travel ke Rotterdam lebih kurg 40 minit dr Schipol Airport, Amsterdam…so..tersadailaa aku kat sini…bak kata senior aku..a new chapter of my life begin…rasa macam xpercaya je dah tinggalkan Msia…seram+sejuk+nervous+takut seme ade..tp bila dgr suara mak aku dlm phone..sejuk skit ati…alhamdullilah mak aku pun makin sihat..tp bla..teringat aku dgn kucing aku Yoda yg kejar aku smpi depan pintu pagar masa aku nak pi…meleleh gaklaa airmata….xtau nak kata sebaknya mcm mana….bila dh sorg2 mcm ni….rindunyaaaa kt Msia…

experience kt sini so far interesting and psl discrimination towards religion mmg ade..esp to Muslim laa….kt sini rmi Muslim esp from Middle east..half of their populations…and for Dutch …muslim kt sini bwk  problem laa etc…and i did debated about this dgn org yg in-charge relocation aku kt sini….aku suh dia bg example laa ape yg problem sgt..tergagap2 nak carik example..which he gave kinda stupid examples…he is a good man  actually tp mmg gilerr laaa leh tensen dgn serangan2 mengutuk org islam and throw it directly to my face…esp about terrorism…and yg plg aku ingat…"Not all muslim are terrorist but all terrorist are muslims"…itu yg dia ckp…takkan aku nk diam jer …geram siut…aku dh agak dh akan dh akan jd mcm ni.dia bole ckp takut aku akan kena discriminate kt sini sbb aku pki tudung…which he wished I wont..tp dia yg dh discriminate aku….what the hell..i dont care…sibuk suh bukak tudung ..hahha…bila blk and time sembahyang meleleh gak air mata aku…sedihlaa sebenarnya tp bila pk2 aku patut lg kuat laa..sbb aku ade Allah utk aku mengadu…doakan aku kt sini…life is really tough here….tp like I said to that man, not all muslim are terrorist and to me not all ppl here discriminate muslim…maybe I’ve met the ONE already…takpe laa good experience so next time i can face yg org yg lebih mencabar lg…hahaha…but after all i find dutch people very nice…kind and concern…sgt menjaga welfare pekerja and rakyat mereka…which i find it kt msia pun xmcm tu…

so far my life was great..good job..experience… l luv my job…kinda challenging for me…but the thing i like here is flexible working hours (sebab kt msia selalu aku dtg lmbt =p) ehehe…kt sini dtg anytime and blk anytime asalkn cukup working hours…be independent….everything was quite new and all my collegues here were very kind and concern about me…i hv a great friends around me too..msian frens..they were very nice…esp Rozie & Is with their cute baby Aiman…Uncle Joe..Kak Nina and her family…Farizah…and kwn2 kt Delft….i  was really greatful to be surrounded with wonderful frens here….

i did have a chance to travel around europe…so far to Brussel with Rozie & Is and 2nd trip to Brussel again with my collegues from msia and also Kak Nina & her cousin, Siti…i’ve been to Germany to visit Sheena…and that was great..tq Sheena, i missed u already…i’ve been to Austria with Kak Nina&her family…tq kak nina for inviting me to that wonderful trip for skiing though i ski for only once and suffer from illness for the rest of one week trip..=P but that was fun and syukur dpt lihat keindahan bumi Austria…the beautiful mountain of Banjaran Alps yg dulu aku hanya dgr dr buku geografi tp alhamdullilah kerana aku dpt jejak kaki aku kt situ…syukur alhamdullilah…thanks to everyone around me here for sharing ur life with me…putting me into some space of ur life….

i am really greatful of my life here….but i did missed my life back then in msia…in fact i missed it very badly lately..i feel homesick…very muchhh…which i never had it before worst like this in my life…not even to compare the moment i gotten into school hostel when i was f1..being away as a student would be different then…surrounded by frens though u r away with family…actually i was away since i was 13 until the age of 22…i can survived…but being away alone in foreign country was really a big challenge for me…yeahh..xsama mcm jd student hvg roomates or housemates…i hv no one at home bila balik rumah…lonely and feeling blue…like no spirit and courage…hvg nice house but mcm xhidup…..rasa mcm tungul with no one to speak to…funny hah? but that was what i am facing now…bg org lain maybe its nothing…but for me…i lost 8kg since i’m here…no appetite to eat..frankly i dont eat good and healty food bcos if did cook its end up in the dustbin…i only eat very small portion from it….i know it is not good but i also dont know what am i going to do about it….

i really happy when anyone come and stay at my place…i feel alive when someone is here for me to share my loneliness…feel somebody around…last 3 weeks were great bila my collegues dr msia came and stay for some works at unimills….then i hv frens everytime i’m home….we cooked dinner together…borak2 time dinner….nak tau how was my dinner when i’m alone?? eheheh…depan tv, mkn sbb nk isi perut tp tasteless…sometime i eat once a day only…and i couldnt believe myself why and how i didnt feel any hunger….it was terrible..and i really hvg serious problem to manage myself here….i really missed my mom’s cooking and missed my home, cats and my cozy room in msia…i really missed hot and sunny day there compare tu dull, gloomy cold day here which really affect my health and emotion…i had enough winter…i cant stand the cold anymore…now i realize and appreciate what i have in msia….ya Allah, i cant wait to be back home to msia…

this few dayss really turned me to a mess…i didnt get to focus on my work due to my health and emotional-homesick problem…then my concern collegues come visited me today just to make sure i was okay and to listen to my problem…i was trully touched..in fact being homesick which for them are normal…and i shoudnt be shy about it..i shouldnt feel ashamed of letting my feeling out instead let it bottle up inside me….i reallized i have great friends around me here…and around the world….and actually i am not ALONE….whatever it is…i should not GIVING UP!!

i should be back to reality and managed myself in track again…i CAN DO it…and i wont let anybody down and dissapoint people who rely high hope on me….thank you for all who being there for me…no matter how i feel and suffer here, i will stay STRONG and because you all are my STRENGTH for me to stand up and face what would come in front of me……

please pray for me to stay in courage and strong enough to continue my life here…….

Yeah..it since ages i never had this done..so here we go!!!

FOUR JOBS YOU’VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE:
<> Student ~ since age of 7 till 22
<> Sales Assistant ~ few months after finish degree
<> Engineer ~ few months before getting the right job
<> Research Officer/Chemist ~ since 2005 until now….

FOUR PLACES YOU’VE LIVED IN:
<> Banting
<> PJ/KL
<> Penang
<> KK, Sabah

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH:
<> Animal Planet
<> National Geographic
<> Smallville
<> Carton of Disney World..

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY:
<> Yahoo mail
<> Friendster
<> Fotopage
<> Golden Hope’s email

FOUR OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE RESTAURANTS:
<> Sushi king ~ now this is on top of the list after i came back from Japan
<> Kenny Rogers’s
<> TGI Friday
<> Pak Li Kopitiam..

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
<> Japanese food ~Sushi, Takoyaki, Okonomiyaki, Tempura, Bento etc..
<> Western

<> Chinese foods

<> Malay foods esp my mom’s cooking..

FOUR SCHOOLS YOU’VE ATTENDED:
<> SRK Sri Langat, Banting
<> SK Bandar, Banting
<> SMK (P) Sri Aman, PJ
<> KMPP/UMS

FOUR PLACES I’D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
<> Sarawak~ as i promised my mom to bring her there after getting my bonuses!!!
<> Holland~ i supposed to be there by Sept  but hopefully after raya..
<> Japan ~ I really missed Japan so much!
<> Home ~ since i am now at office, I should be going home by now..

FOUR THINGS YOU’VE DONE TODAY:
<> Meeting
<> Surfing
<> Chatting with friends
<> Do my work and go home after this! =p

FOUR THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY:
<> went to Imigration Putrajaya settling my maid process..
<> met my fiancee all the way there and had lunch together…
<> then, went to survey shirt for Safety Campaign for my company
<> going back home and had dinner with my mom at Pantai Kelanang…

FOUR SONGS YOU LAST HEARD: as i can remember…
<> my ringtone of kelly clarkson’s ~ because of you
<> i can’t recall..

<> can’t recall…

<> can’t recall again..

Samui means cold. yeahh…sejuk gilerr kt sini. Org2 japan ni leh ckp ni warmer winter. maybe sbb el nino yg melanda dunia kot. perubahan musim dan cuaca..tp apepun aku tetap rasa sejuk..kalau dh area 5 degree kebwh camtu tak ke cam dlm peti ais kt umah nu…

Sedar xsedar dah seminggu aku kt sini. Alhamdullilah dah leh adapt dgn persekitaran sini. Dr segi kerja mmg best keje dgn japanese, org2 kt sini sgt baik, mknn xde hal sbb aku msk sendri….homesick xdelaa dah…mlm2 je rasa sunyi…

So far kerja alhamdullilah..seronok keje smpi xsedar dah abih seminggu. Byk aku belajar dan seme mmg berkaitan dgn ape yg perlu aku tau utk siapkan projek aku..seronok keje dgn org jepun. Diorg sgt punctual, though pyh gak diorg nak ckp english but diorg sgt ok..sama2 belajar bhs msg2…aku nak improve japanese, diorg pun nak improve english and nak belajar BM…’sugoi’…comel betul diorg bersusah payah nak ckp BM..hehehe

apartment aku plak sgt best though only a small place but complete. Diorg sgt detail in everything. Full furnish sampaikan ke dapur benda2 kecik cam span basuh pinggan seme ade…perghh mmg aku respek laa diorg ni. keje mmg sistematik and giler hardworking..bila enjoy mmg enjoy betul…

thanks to them buat welcome party utk aku…sgt2 terharu…masa first2 dtg seme serius wat keje..xdenya nak borak..aku pun segan gaklaa nak tegur2 diorg..just greet camtu2.. tp bila Inoue-san ckp diorg seme nak ckp dgn aku tp diorg pun segan..aku pun tegur diorg. Inoue-san -dia org yg aku plg rapat sbb dia yg bwk aku shopping n jln2 masa mula2 aku smpi). Then bila masa welcome party, mmg enjoy sgt2…gelak sakan..xmcm diorg yg aku nampak serius wat keje…hahah..diorg very profesional…

Aku pi keje naik bas, minggu ni diorg temankan pi and blk..dekat je company tu, 10 minit dr apartment aku…so start next week, aku naik bas sendri, insyaAllah ok..sbb aku dh hafal jln minggu nih..Minggu lps pun diorg sediakan lunch. Bento..mmg sedap tp byk gilerr…sgt2 special, buah pun bkn cikai2, strawberry..perghh..sedap gilerr strawberry diorg…segar and manis. Melambak2 diorg jual…kalau ikut mmg murah sbb kualiti bagus…harga pun reasonable…hihihi..br td aku dok melantak strawberry..sedap…kalau kt msia rasanya masam..xsedap..tp kt sini ‘oishi’…

apepun, rasa bersyukur sgt kt sini wp sorg2 tp japanese sini lgsg xde buat aku rasa terasing. kdg2 lgsg xrasa sini japan lg2 time keje sbb xsedar. bla kuar rasa sejuk..sedarlaa blm msia. Alhamdullilah syukur sgt aku xde terkontang-kanting wp sorg2 dtg sini.

Arini aku jumpa Yukiko, dia dtg apartment aku. Aku dh msk then ajak dia mkn. Xde la msk pedas cuma yg ade rendang mak aku, tp rendang daging rusa. Ade gak sambal tempe. Dia suka gile mkn rendang tu tp aku xbgtau dgg rusa kang dia xnak mkn lak…dah sedap2 dok mkn aku br bgtau…terkejut gak tp dia ckp mmg dia suka sgt2…sambal tempe pun dia suka sbb dia ckp ade gak mknn jepun lebih kurg camni..hehehe…seronok betul…

Esok, aktiviti lebih exciting. Sightseeing…diorg nak bwk pi Nikko. Nikko satu tempat menarik, bandar lama yg ade scenery yg cantik, air terjun, hot spring, spa..etc..wp aku xpi lg, tp aku dah survey la ape ade kt sane skit2…jauh gak 3 jam dr Yokohama. But mmg rasa excited sgt. Tp diorg ckp sane lebih sejuk sbb dkt dgn mountain..but aku tetap seronok…sejuk pun sejuklaa…

Lusa, ade lg aktiviti memandangkan isnin, japan cuti jd diorg mmg dah buat schedule nak bwk aku jln2…ya allah aku mmg bersyukur berjumpa insan2 yg baik hati mcm diorg ni. Hari aku smpi lg diorg dh tanya aku nak pi mana…ari rabu siap discuss sape yg nak bwk sbb rmi sgt volunteer, so boss diorg yg pilih…so diorg gilir2 utk mgu2 yg seterusnya…sungguh terharu…opss…lupa lak..isnin nak jln2 area Tokyo City…maybe Tokyo Tower and tempat2 yg sewaktu dgnnya…termasuk nak cari kedai halal nak beli daging&ayam.

Penat gaklaa kot dok berjalan weekend ni tp arini aku xke mana…cuma yukiko dtg then aku pi shopping skit beli brg nak msk. Td aku dh msk skit and siapkan2 brg so next week blk keje snglaa nak masak…

So, rasanya ni je la update aku utk minggu pertama kt Japan ni. haa…lina (adek aku!) nnt ko baca, citer laa kt family kt umah. Akak xle nak citer seme bila call…nnt akak update gambar lg bile pi jln2 sok ok…

okla, nak tdo dh la, nak kemas brg nak bwk sok…

*wondering of Nikko…here i come….

Hari ni first day start training. Bgn pagi2 solat subuh dalam pukul 6 then tdo balik since lmbt lg nak ke ofis. Shirama-san n Inoue-san nak amik kt apartment then naik bas sama2. Dekat jer dr apartment ni. Tp yg tak tahan tu, sejuk betul la pagi2 kt sini. Pakai baju tebal pun sejuk lg. Tak tau la..

Sampai2 seme org dah ade yg start keje. Rupa2nya diorg ada flexible time dtg keje. Ade yg dtg awal and lmbt tp seme pun blk lmbt. Aku pun slalu blk keje pun dlm 6.45ptg atau 7 camtu depends kalau kakak kt admin tu dh blk lom sbb aku takut gak sorg2…alaa..sedihlaa dh teringat msia..apepun morning session ade orientation skit and introduction kt sape2 yg aku lom jumpa masa last trip aku…then la ni rmi lg aku kenal..but japanese mmg sgt polite and baik hati..kdg2 segan dibuatnya…

Mkn tengahari diorg siapkan utk minggu ni but sbb arini aku dh bwk bekal so org lain yg mkn la..so esok aku xyah bwk. Bagus tul la diorg ni. Balik pun diorg suh org anta aku blk..then aku pi shopping jap kt area Tsurumi ni. Best nya tempat ni seme ade, train station, shopping mall and so forth..cuma takde org aku nak cakap melayu..xnampak plak org msia..yg aku tau ramai malaysian student area sini.

Blk rehat2, aku xmsk sbb sok aku xpyh bwk ape2. Aku dah siapkan reportlaa mlm ni, tp slm tu aku call my home sweet home and iq. mcm homesick plak. Maybe sbb aku rasa lonely sgt. Bkn xbiasa jauh dgn famili. Dulu pun jauh gak..cuma xde org lgsg nak berckp. dok sorg2 kan…kt U or asrama dulu rmi kwn..la ni xde sape..dah la aku ni suka berckp..nasib baik ade internet…leh ga aku surf and chatting…and tulis blog. Blog la jd mangsa kebosanan aku.

Nasib baik kwn aku bg tau website leh tgk Tv malaysia. www.syoktv.net, dapatla tgk astro and tv2 kt msia. terubat gak rindu aku…rasa xsabar la nak blk…sejuklaa kt sini..td aku dh mkn byk..tp la ni dh lapar lg..

mlm ni rasa xle tdola…xtau nape. dh kul 1.30pg dh..mcm2 dh aku buat..nak bg penat then nak tdo. oklaa..sokla aku melalut lg kt sini sbb dah xde sape aku nak borakkan? kt sini je la tempat aku mengadu. penatlaa nak ckp BI and japanese yg brape fasih kt sini. apepun msia gak yg best…

*aku nak nasik lemak panas….argghhhh!!!

Alhamdullilah..sampai dah aku kat bumi Japan ni sekali lg. Slps satu minggu dah penuh ‘bz’ rushing nak settle kan segala2nya dr visa, passport, tiket yg berkali2 tukar yg dptnya mlm sblm aku berlepas..akhirnya disinilaa aku tersadai..

Bertolak dr klia kul 11am semalam, 3/2/2007 sampai lebih kurang 7 jam slps tu tp dok tersadai kt Narita Airport sbb computer system diorg breakdown..ade la dekat sejam lebih Yanagi and Shiramasa-san tgu aku kt luar tu. Aku yg terhoyong-hayang bwk 3 beg, backpack, laptop and satu beg mknn..kelam kabutnya..nasib baik ade org msia yg tlg aku mengangkat brg2 aku yg dh excess bagage tuh..

Lps jumpa Yanagi and Shiramasa-san..kuar je airport..MasyaAllah..sejuknya menusuk2 ke tulang…suhu yg diorg kata biase jerr tu less than 5 degree time tu dah cukup wat aku mengigil…perghh xtau la nak ckp. Sampai2 apartment aku kul 10 lebih..dah la sejuk..kebulur gilerr…yg best tu aku mkn bekalan yg nak aku msk..best gilerr..nasi impit, kuah kacang, rendang daging rusa n udang masak merahh…best..pastu tido laa ape lg..

Pagi ni, rehat2..pi shopping lakbeli brg2 dapur seme..dgn Inoue-san plak. Penat laa..xlarat nak jln time sejuk2 nih. Beli2 brg je blk. Then masak2 utk bekalan sok ..call my home, my sayang iq…surf internet, chatting dgn kawan sek rendah aku, camat yg kt german…then time to sleep…aku mmg nak kasi penat betul baru tdo..sbb payah skit nak tdo kt tempat baru…nak kasi adjust environment dulu…hmm nampaknya mata dh nak lelap nih…so update lg kisah aku ni sok ok…

*sangapla time mlm2 mcm nih…siang keje, mlm lepak kt apartment, nak kuar pun sejuk…arghhh missed my home…

What a wonderful lady she is…Anita S’wak is a big name..i guess everyone knew her. Though I was not a very fanatic fan of her but I‘ve fond of her ever since I watched her performance alive at the Gala Dinner 2007, an evening to remember at Mahkota Ballroom, Istana Hotel, KL. A very GRAND dinner last Saturday organized by Golden Hope. Very thankful to be apart of Golden Hope Family…

I have never seen an entertainer performed just like her though I’ve met Siti, Ziana and some local artist. Seeing her alive in front of me make me feel excited. She is so energetic despite her age, looked so young, beautiful and full of power and confidence. She makes use of 1hour and 15 minutes to entertain guests inside the ballroom with a fantastic, havoc and wonderful evening for me to remember for the rest of my life. (I guess Nash’s performance previously was totally extinguished by the presence of her that night.)

Maybe some of u will think this is not a big deal but for me it does. It is not easy to be an entertainer or singer. You can’t just sing a few songs and leave your audience. That’s not an entertainer.  I guess good communication between entertainer and guests really give an impact to an excellent performance. People may under estimate singers in Malaysia especially Malay singer (yess..i admit that I did it too sometimes..) but I think I found my diva. She soooo deserve to be called a DIVA. Though last time I am not really care of singerssss but now I do…she is the one who make my eyes open. I don’t have any specific favourite singers (esp Malaysian). I just like singing their songs, but don’t really bother to know whose songs that I used to sing…

I did remember Anita saying about her mother, Siput S’wak asked her to learn many languages in order to touch the heart of her audiences. That may require skill and effort to learn all those languages. She sang Malay’s, English’s Chinese’s, Japanese’s songs and a few more. She is really a wonderful person. She gave her all out and I think it was worth for Golden Hope to pay her RM40K. (That’s what I heard from the committee…goshh that worth my annual salary!!).

What do you feel when a famous DIVA Extraordinaire approaching you??? It was unbelievable laaa rite? I’m not going to brag or anything…just to express what I felt when Anita approached me to sing with her even though it was just part of the chorus song but the best thing is… that was my favourite song, “Can’t Take My Eyes of You”. I was like ‘freezing’ for a moment when she was standing in front of me. Can’t even utter a word! But that was a very memorable experience which I am not expecting her to do so and I think it will remain in my heart forever. She lingered to every table inside the ballroom and makes an effort to reach everyone. Teasing and talking, singing and laughing.

But I guess, she is one of the best examples so far to be followed by the “Malaysian artist/celebrities”. Energetic, knowledgeable, hvg effort to improve her own self, confidence and ready to learn everything include foreign languages and their cultures. That is why she was called a DIVA. Big applause to her!!!

here my favourite song;

written by Gaudio/Crewe
recorded by Frankie Valli And The Four Seasons
recorded as a medley with "Goin’ Out of My Head" by the Lettermen

You’re just too good to be true.
Can’t take my eyes off you.
You’d be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I’m alive.
You’re just too good to be true.
Can’t take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There’s nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel.
Please let me know that it’s real.
You’re just too good to be true.
Can’t take my eyes off you.

I love you baby, and if it’s quite all right,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don’t bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

And let me love you, baby. Let me love you …

I love you baby, and if it’s quite allright,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don’t bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

Oh pretty baby. Trust in me when I say: Oh pretty baby …

it has been nearly 7 years since my last training. i was completely forgotten everything that i’ve learned since 1996 until 2000. then i’ve left it until now. though i’ve gotten my black belt on 1998 and continue until 2000 during my matrix years, but i feel it is a waste just to let everything gone from my mind. skill might be there but it’s nothing without the continuous practice rite?

i’m longing for this moment quit a long time since i was in my university’s years but that ‘great’ uni hasn’t even manage to make a single taekwondo class until i’ve graduated even though i already paid for the registration fees! what a shamed, i’m wondering whether they have it now or not..hopefully they did!

so, the interesting part was my first training today. havent been training for nearly 7 years really made me suffered. surrounded by young primary & secondary school students around me just like a ring bell that make me admit the facts that i am not YOUNG anymore! i was not like 10 years back when i was 14/15 yrs old, active and energetic and full of stamina. all these make me realized that my body was not really elastic and flexible anymore like the ‘elastic girl’ like 10 years ago.duuuhhh!

time fly so fast  and not giving me a chance to realize all this. but i am not regreting anything, day by day make every new things become old. i still feel thankful that this oppurtunity still come and i’m not going to waste any of this chance anymore. though my coach said that i shouldnt stress myself on the training, afraid that i will encounter the muscle injuries but i still hv the spirit for it. yeahh i did felt the pain when i did the strecthing and while kicking & punching. but maybe my passion and my revenge of missing this moment overcome all those pains. though i hv to admit that my stamina was not like my ‘gud old days’…(should i remind myself.. it was 10 yrs back again??)

when i’m looking back, it was all the way long…i dont hv to compare 10 years ago with my current condition. today was my first training, a lot more training can make me better. this is some of my-this-2007-year mission to be accomplish. look as if i started one of it already…but  actually this training is for me to recall back all my lesson and sharpen my skill for one main purpose, my japan’s training which was schedule that i’ll be going ALONE. just an in-case-of-emergency preparation for me to defend myself.

after all, i felt so happy that i finally made my comeback and found the ‘master’ nearby my place.

just a little advice maybe, if i may do so. from my view, women out there should have a least a lil knowledge on how to defend themselves because it may help a lot during emergency and trouble! we might not know anything will occur in the future but at least we could do something to save our own life.

just a sincere advice from me..

* i’m sleeping with muscle pain and backache but i’m happy…;p

1. what did you do last night before you slept?

# I gave a call to my iq.. saying that I arrived safely last night after a day picnic at Sg Gabai.

2. what did u do this morning when you woke up?

# as usual, woke up lazily with backache after hvg fun in air terjun yesterday, get myself ready for work, and feed my cats…

3. what song did you recently hear?

# no that I remember, just listen to crap of rudy & jj doing all those frank callsss pretending to be the elf asking what the ppl wants for x’mas….hahha..kind da make me laugh la gak..

4. did you sleep in your room last night?

# of course…where else should I be..

5. what’s your day like yesterday?

# fun +enjoying my self +excitement +happy esp iq was joining along with all my family members…..we’re hvg a great picnicing day in Sg. Gabai. Air terjun was sooo cool…..complete with it’s own natural-built slide…and also hvg bbq etc…and on d way home, we’re stopped by to indulge the ‘sate kajang’ which I did belanja all since my gaji dah msk…after all..it was a great day!!

6. do you enjoy being alone?

# at a time yess…but most of it no…

7. are you a daydreamer?

# I would say very….mostly while driving…sumtimes I cant even realized that I already arrived at the destination & yg plg danger skali at the traffic light…duhhh!! I hv to get rid of it laa….

8. where’s your favorite place to daydream?

# while I’m resting maybe…

9. what was the last thing you drank?

# plain hot water for breakfast..

10. if you were a shirt, what color would you be?

# why should I be the shirt?? I wanna wear a black shirt I guess..

11. describe a favorite moment.

# hng a long holiday with my family + iq like yesterday…

12. describe your favorite weather

# though msia is hot I would prefer it rather than damn cold winter…but autumn season during afternoon would be the best as sun shining and wind blowing…huuuhhh….

13. can you eat anything?

# I eat almost anything except laksa penang..weird huh??

14. what’s your hair like today?

# I don’t hv to bother bcos I’m wearing tudung…don’t even hv time pun to sikat this morning…

15. are you going to take a bath today?

# I did….which my sis yelled at me saying that I’m “mandi bunga”

16. who do u wish to spend the rest of ur life with?

# the one who love me the way I am..

17. who do you adore?

# my mother who being so strong & caring raising 10 of us. Can u imagine that? Some say, a mother can raise 10 childrens but 10 childrens not gureented to do the same way too…but I hope I can make my mom happy as long as I lived…amin..

18. if you were alone in a cafe what will you be doing?

# hvg a hot chocolate & surfing my wireless internet phone or laptop if did bring it.

19. would you rather be having a cup of tea or coffee?

# I prefer TEH O’

20. do you believe in wishing stars?

# nope! That were nonsense….

21. which do you believe the most, fairy or wishing star?

# none of it!

22. do you like chocolate?

# hmm…I don’t think I can resist it..

23. do you like to read?

# very much but not that facts books/journals which I hv 2 force myself to read for my research but the 6 novels that I bought at the clearance stock of pay less promotion at USJ last week ..waiting to be read..argghh…I need time for that!!

Welcome to Japan….

That’s the feeling that i have when i indulge the air of Japan. I really feel welcome to this "segoi" place. Arrived at 5.45pm (Japan time 6.45pm, one hour earlier), 29/10/2006 by MAS which took nearly 7 hours. A very nice flight where i met my old buddy from Matriks which on the same flight. What a suprise!! Guztyne, if u read this, maybe ko dah balik malaysia by now…

After a really tiring flight journey and a long que to pass the imigration (which take nearly an hour), we took a limousine bus from Narita to our hotel, Villa Fontain in Hakozaki. It took about an hour from Narita airport to the hotel….really tiring. We had maggi for dinner since everyone were damn tired! So hvg maggi dinner for me is not a big deal but maybe yes to my boss and another boss from marketing who havent had maggi for quite a long time…but it was interesting…they all enjoy it since everybody were starve to death….=p

30/10/2006

The very first morning air in Japan, after an early wake up, i had breakfast with the bosses and Yanagi-san from Sumitomo who came to fetch us. We’re heading to Yokohama and that was the first time we use the very convenient train in Japan. Most japanese travel by train and it connect almost every inch of Japan land…it’s very impressive. They don’t even need cars to travel. From Tokyo station to Tsurumi station near Yokohama it took about 30 minutes by Tokkaido Line. By paying 380 yen one way which equivalent to almost RM 12, is was quite expansive. RM 24 for return that makes us felt everything in Japan is expansive. maybe because of the currency 3 times higher than malaysian ringgit.

In Yokohama, we had meeting  and visited their plant. We had lunch in their office. It’s a very nice ‘bento’ or lunch box served complete with tempura seafood, lobsters, and vegie. It was very nice. Japan sunset at 4.30pm (3.30pm, M’sia time). But japanese never get back home at 5pm. The good attitude about them which make their country so fast developed was because they were very hardworking. Usually they will returm home by 9 or 10pm even for the government servant. They working up extra time WITHOUT overtime payment ok! that’s impressed me much!! No wonder they were so advanced in everything. They were very fast, very team oriented, very coorperative and hardworking.

That was my impression on the first day having the surrounded by Japanese people. After a tiring day, we go back to Tokyo city by train and having our first dinner of Tempura udon in the Tokyo Station.

31/12/2006

Having the same routine as yesterday, we were fetch by Rokukawa-san this time. Heading to Yokohama by train, we had a full day meeting and last discussion with our customer. Also discussing about my training schedule which was set to be next January 2007. yeahhh great laa sangat because that should be on winter. I am already freezing now in Autumn. Though the sun was there shining after u but the weather was cold esp during morning and night. I feel like i’m crying after taking my bath….sejuknyaaa!!! Ni belum winter lg!!

After we had sushi as our lunch, we finished the discussion. Then they brought us for dinner. So this time, we had italian dinner for the farewell dinner. So i had pizzza, spagegetti and a lot more…until no more can stuck into my mouth…ehehe..so they gave me a JAPANANESE FAN as a souvenir and it was so beautiful. I opened it as an honoured and appreciation to them. very much thanks to them…so we went back to the hotel with a memorable day with them though it was so damn tired!

1/11/2006 - 2/11/2006

These 2 days, we went to our customer office in Tsukiji by train. We came across Shinjuku and very near to Ginza. A heaven place for shopping. Stopping by the Fish Market in Tsukiji, we saw a fresh fish market just besi   de the river bank. That was cool bcos the foods there were absolutely fresh! So we had our serious meeting and discussion. Both these days was quite hectic and full of headache.

3/11/2004

Public holiday in Japan. So we took this oppurtunity to change out hotel from hakozaki in Tokyo City to Roppongi. Roppongi is a place which quite full of foreigner and embassy. So speaking english is not a big deal here. Before we check in which should be at 2.30pm, we had a tour to Nijubashi, Emporer Palace by subway train from Roppongi-Itchome station. We had a great time there to look at the beauty scenery at the garden palace. later on, we took a train back to Roppongi and we had a chance to see the Tokyo View City from the R$oppongi Hills. That was great to see a very developed city which is so crowded with buildings. After that we curry for lunch at the Roppongi Hills! siggghhhhh!!! after a week indulging the japanese foods.

We went back to the hotel after that, and we had a long rest. So we had this weekend to do some sightseeing.

4/11/2006

My boss’s adopted daughter came to bring us around. But that was on 2pm. before that, when i did my laundry, i was bumped into a guy from Malaysia, Khairul. What a suprise!! That was so happy when u live a in place where everthing was so strange to u and finally u found someone from the same country. We had a chat and i introduced him to my bosses. We became friend and from that moment, we had our meals together as he recommanded some restaurant. So we had Indian foods….at least…after that we had a walk to Roppongi Hill with a cold weather during the night…so Yukiko slept overnight at my hotel as it was already late…

5/11/2006

I went to Akihabara and Asakusa with Yukiko and Khairul as the bosses met the ppl from Matrade. So, it was quite fun without the boss…ehehe…jahatkan?? Takdelaaa cam segan skit…so i had a wonderful time in Akihabara finding all the electronic goods with duty free….but my purpose was only to buy the electronic dictionary. So, khairul and yukiko helped me to choose the good and suitable one for me. After we bought it with 13,500yen~RM400, we went to Asakusa by train.

It was fun in Asakusa as it is an old town full with history and cultural building/temple. There was a lot of ppl visiting that place. A lot of foods and souvenir/handicraft. I ate ’sembei’ a cracker made from rice and coated with seaweed. That was delicious hvg with japanese green tea.That was soooo cool!! So i visited the temple for a while and did some shopping. I bought 6 kimonos (something like yukata) for my family. It was fun….

Later on, we heading back to the hotel and i send yukiko home. That was a great day with Yukiko and Khairul….